I'm so angry that I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD earlier.

I'm 26 (turning 27) and I only just now got diagnosed with ADHD.

I can't help but to look back on my life and think how 80%+ of things that have gone substantially wrong were ADHD-related. Poor grades in high school -> ADHD. Completely cutting off friends in college after hyper-fixating on how they weren't paying much attention to me -> ADHD. Failure to apply to and get internships in college -> ADHD. Hyper-infatuation preventing me from navigating the early stages of relationships properly -> ADHD. Stages of deep depression after I hyper-fixate on something "going wrong" -> ADHD. My parents thinking I'm a fuck-up for not being able to keep up with daily tasks and paperwork -> ADHD. Poor job performances early in my career -> ADHD. My failure to find a psychiatrist who might diagnose me with ADHD for years despite suspecting I might have it because finding one felt too intimidating -> ADHD.

Now I'm on Vyvanse and I have an idea of what people without ADHD feel like. It's hard knowing I have so much stuff to catch up on in life, just because the adults earlier in my life failed me in this specific way. I'm obviously grateful I got diagnosed, and it's not like things are unsalveagble, but fuck is it all still so frustrating.