AITAH for breaking up with my boyfriend because I felt like he was too excited about my being a virgin?

I (21F) had until very recently been dating my exboyfriend “Alex” (22M). Our relationship lasted a little over 9 months. When we started dating I was clear that I wanted to take things slow and he was cool with it, but we didn’t discuss details of our sexual history. He has two exes who go to our college who I know he had sex with, and I told him I hadn’t really dated seriously before because that’s the truth. I had a couple boyfriends in high school and dated one guy briefly my freshman year at college but none were very long lasting or intimate. The most I’d done was kissing.

I’m not opposed to premarital sex or even casual sex on principle. I just have this worry that I’ll chicken out or it’ll hurt and I’ll want to stop, and the whole situation will be a fiasco. I also tend to be a bit socially awkward so the casual sex or casual dating thing sounds like a horrible time for me but I can see how girls who are more extroverted/less anxious than me could have fun with it.

Point being, I decided it’s not for me but I legitimately support the girls I know who enjoy it. Good for them.

Anyway, recently I mentioned the idea of wanting to maybe try having sex to Alex. But I explained I’m a virgin and I’m afraid I’ll chicken out, and that I don’t want to get him going and then us have to stop, etc. And he seemed oddly excited about it.

He started talking about all the things we could do to make me more comfortable, which hypothetically were all things I was hoping he’d say, but his whole vibe seemed… off. I mentioned it and he admitted that he has a bit of a fetish for virginity/purity. Honestly, it just gave me the ick. My virginity is something I’m very self conscious and anxious about, and the idea that my first time would be with a partner who is paying very close attention and getting off on the very things I’m anxious and nervous about just makes me feel gross. It makes the anxiety go up even more.

After thinking about it, I realized I don’t think I’m ever going to be comfortable losing my virginity to Alex and it’s not fair for me to continue the relationship. Sex is a natural part of relationships and if I don’t think I can have it with him now then our relationship has an expiration date, so it’s better for me to break it off now. It was so difficult because I really, really like Alex, but it pulled the bandaid off and broke up with him a couple weeks ago.

AITAH?

Tl;dr: I am a virgin and my now ex had a fetish for virgins. It made me feel gross to imagine losing my virginity to someone with a virgin fetish, so I broke up with him