My Dad Passed away Last Night.

My Dad, 69, passed away from Bulbar Onset MND Last night. Never taken a paracetamol in his life and never complained about anything, didnt even complain that he had the disease. He was a hero to me and my 2 sisters as well as being my Mum's soul mate.

I thought the gradual decline from the disease would help me cope to some extent or wouldn't impact me as much as we knew what was coming..

How wrong was i.

Me and the family sat by his bedside at the hospital for the last few days as his health deteriorated. We played his favourite songs for him and told him how much he meant to us and how much we loved him.

The Strength my Mum has shown is just incredible. The impact its had her and the resolve to give her best for Dad was inspirational. On Dad's final day she sat by his side for 11 hours straight. She never complained either. The Toll its taken on her has worried me and my siblings but i think she's stronger than us. I don't think i know actually.

Seeing Dad's deceased body and the reaction of my family, particularly my mum, has devastated me and changed my life forever. I'm absolutely heartbroken and in complete shock of his passing and the manner of it. The Wave of emotions I'm feeling right now is a new for me. Like a massive Black Fog is surrounding my head but then i feel guilty as Dad was experiencing much worse to this monster. We love him so much.

Fuck MND / ALS.

It can never take away the love we have for our loved ones.

Sending Love and Strength to all the People affected. X