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Hi, i dont really know what to do. Im 18 (F) and I feel like counting and tracking calories is ruining my life. I dont think i have an eating disorder, and im certainly not diagnosed but, i always stop myself from eating when i can, and have to make sure im always in a deficit. When i can, i walk and burn at least 250 more. It started last year when I began using my (tw) acid reflux to get rid of ANYTHING i ate. but then that wasnt enough and i found it too exhausting, so i began to eat less and less where i could and exercising when i could. all i think about is how many calories i eat and every time i eat im filled with the most disgusting guilt. for the record, im not what people would consider a slim person, im not overweight either, but i am on the curvier side. i just dont know what to do. i want to enjoy eating again, and not worry. i feel like everytime i eat i get bigger and that nothing will change it. im not trolling. im not fishing.