High functional alcoholic husband.. struggling to make a decision.

I have been married for 7 years, it was arranged marriage through family. My husband is functional alcoholic, he has a good job, he keeps up with his routine. He drinks every day, every evening he needs to open his whiskey or vodka bottle. Initially I thought it is only for enjoyment but now I am reflecting he is drinking nearly 350 ml of hard spirit everyday. He can go without alcohol for 2 days but then he is back to his drinking.

Initial year in marriage I was happy there was love and romance but then it’s faded. We don’t have kids yet. Now I am planning for kids but looking at his drinking I see myself raising kid alone. Because when I will need him he will be drunk and passed out in bed and probably more irritated with kids responsibility. I listened to him and obedient wife but looking at future I don’t think so I want my kid to have father who doesn’t care. Also he never talks about kids like normal people they dream, they talk about their kids names and stuff.. he never does that and it makes me feel he is just for heck of it with me. I felt out of love since 1 year, because he was drunk and we had argument, in that argument he said he is not attractive to me anymore which breaks my heart.. after hearing that I was about to leave the house but he didn’t stop me and I stopped because my parents won’t be happy if I leave him..

I am confused what to do!! I don’t know if he loves me but my love for him has faded since that incident. I am just staying with him because I have to. Sometimes he shows he loves me when he is drunk. But when he is sober he doesn’t say I love you or kiss me. I don’t like him when he is sober because he behaves rude and arrogant. When he is drunk he is more calm. He never ever abused me verbally or physically. He is only concerned about his money and property. He lives for people praises. We don’t go on holidays like normal people. We don’t socialise in the evening because he has to sit at home and drink. We didn’t even go on honeymoon. initially there were lunch dates but it’s been 4 years no lunch dates. I tried to show my love differently but then he wasn’t happy, he was irritated with my behaviour which made me sad and I created the distance from him. It’s just I am confused about my future with him.