acid reflux/eh

TW bc this is a vent

somebody please help i really need some answers and im freaking out right now :( i recently learned that acid reflux can give false hunger cues and i've dealt with acid reflux even pre-ed. apparently they feel almost like a burning sensation and im now feeling like all of my extreme hunger has actually just been false hunger cues and i feel so horrible and disgusting and greedy and i can't help but just breakdown and want to relapse. i have eaten so much sugary foods with EH and now what if i was just using it as an excuse to eat more of it in those big quantities? and in turn making it even worse? i am so upset because i was doing so well, i was eating and enjoying things and actually feeling happy for the first time in over 3 months since my relapse, i was even continuing on honoring eh with my recent shit body image, i was trying so hard to ignore all the food guilt and it all just hit me in one go and im so lost on what to do with myself.

im just so overwhelmingly upset and scared. this EH that i was so fucking proud of myself for honoring through the bloating and extreme discomfort feels all for nothing. i feel 1000x more invalid to continue recovery, i wanna try tomorrow so bad, but now it'll just feel fake