Wish I wasn’t born with Asperger’s/Learning disability; my AP (especially my mom) be acting real cruel

Diagnosed with mild Asperger’s since grade 3 with also a learning disability. Had a fairly easy run through mid and high school despite my disabilities.

University comes along and everything is becoming turbulent especially with time spent in my house with my mom and dad.

Studying towards getting my license to become a pharmacist, yet I feel discouraged about my chances to pass the exam.

My dad is fairly laidback, so he’s not the problem, it’s my mom.

She would always check my studies whenever she had the chance. I have to recite almost every word back to her (even though I strongly believe this doesn’t work on a multiple choice exam). Every time I forget a word or mess up, she raised her voice, criticizing my lack of intelligence and slow responses (even though I’m struggling with a learning disability). She would then preach about my word ethic and thinks that I’m “planning to fail” and “no motivation”.

It’s my anxiety of having to deal with her that eats away at my motivation and belief that I can pass this exam.

I sometimes wonder if god is punishing me with my disability and Asperger’s. I function slower than others in terms of mental process. That’s why I’m still living with my parents and not driving my own car yet. If only I was a neurotypical normal person, then I wouldn’t have to suffer through more berating from my mom… 😔