I feel like I have no support network

Outside of interactions here on Reddit, there is no other situation where I can truly share my feelings, which is driving me crazy.

I'm completely alone, and at this point my parents are just people who feed me and give me shelter, because I don't feel a connection with them. In fact, I think it would be beneficial if they hated me, because then I wouldn't be wanted if I gave up everything and started living on the streets.

My anguish has already taken over me, I have become my own problems. My friends have moved away, psychologists feel uncomfortable with my presence, the problem could only be me. And that's the biggest irony - it's something that is out of my control.

Human life is not always worth it