Turned 20 today

I am very dumb,overweight,doing b tech from tier 3 college has no intrest in it, failed in 3 subjects thinking about dropping off from the college

I have adhd Severe myopia Fuked up hormonal imbalance No confidence No social life Short height 5.6 ft Average looks Broke

I can't focus at anything since I have Tinnitus and myopia My eyes and brain starts to hurt I f i study even for half an hour

Totally depressed Gets abused by friends and gets taunting from parents

Now I am 20 and I am scared af that how will I deal with this world I have lost intrest in living the life but too coward to end it

THINK I AM NIHILLISTIC PERSON since evrything seems so meaningless in this world

Any suggestions, Advice,tips would be helpful