I don't know why I dislike Dazai so much

If you're Dazai stan, please scroll cause this post is not for you lol. I've only watched a few seasons of the show so far, and my opinions and feelings on Dazai had slowly shifted. Perhaps he's more likeable in the manga or light novel, but idk.

So I need to get this off my chest, because I absolutely dislike Dazai at times, and for reasons I don't even know are even reasonable. I get it that's he's supposed to be morally grey and complicated, not a good person, but I don't why my feelings towards him are different to other morally gray characters out there, and I'm still trying to figure this out. Because he's not the most evil character in all of anime. And I happen to like morally gray characters. His backstory with the Port Mafia was interesting and I guess I liked him at first. He reminded me of Gojo, the joking and playful type, who is arrogant at times because of how OP they are, but gets serious when things go down. But unlike Gojo, I find Dazai near insufferable and he grinds my gears. I think it started when he beat up Akutagawa and almost shot him all of sudden. I don't care if the circumstances led to this, or even if it was Akutagawa's fault, but that just make me start disliking him. Dazai took him in him when was young and helpless, so he was not just this random kid to him he was just schooling. So in a way I did feel bad for Akutagawa and the crappy treatment he got from Dazai that really messed him up. I don't even care about or even like Akutagawa, but that just rubs me the wrong way. Another was his history with Chuuya, and how he basically cornered him to join the PM. Years later he decided to leave because he needed to figure himself out, among other reasons. He was seen as a traitor, rightfully so. I don't care if the organization they're working for is bad or not, but I definitely feel for Chuuya and would be pissed if I were him, to have someone threaten you to join a group, then bounce out of there without a word. I think what gets to me is his reasons for his actions, like he doesn't really have a really goal he wants to accomplish, from my understanding, rather he's trying understand himself, the philosophical meaning of life and whatver, and find a good way to die meaningfully? So he kind of sits in this weird wishy washy area where he's not completely evil because everything can attributed to his young age, and he didn't know any better. But he's done some pretty despicable things, yet he never really expressed guilt for his past actions (in which his motives aren't clear or strong enough to properly explain why he did), and in the end, the Detective Agency didn't really change him much to be a good person either.

I don't know exactly why because I have came across many characters who are manipulative and morally corrupt. I also dislike how much plot armor he gets, his deductions are outlandish and confusing, but maybe that's just the writing. But then he comes out from the other side like he's all hot stuff, which again makes me wanna roll my eyes. I've read a lot of the genius archetype characters done well, none of them comes off as pretentious and cocky as he is (but that's probably a genius BSD character thing, to be fair). I get these are quite petty reasons to dislike him, but I had a feeling he was supposed to be written as unlikeable and yet he's very well-liked among the fandom, for reasons that don't have to do with his character. Yeah maybe he came out this way because of Mori (Dazai's stans number one defense for him) but it's pretty clear he was already f'ed up since he was young, and even before he joined the Mafia.

If he's real, I wouldn't be able to stand him, as he's the type of person to leave a bad taste in your mouth once you get to know him, and I would avoid him like the plague. I couldn't really care if he dies or not. So yeah that's my rant, again I don't care if you love Dazai, but just don't defend him like he's done no wrong lol. He's kind of pretty but boii is he insufferable. Also there's many characters in the show I can't stand, not just Dazai, but since Dazai is so popular, that's why I made this post.