Made the dumbest fucking mistake in my best call ToT

My best call this season was IIM L both PGP and the ABM programme and I had barely prepared for the interviews at all with only 10 days to the interview. I spent all my time trying to get my HRQs and why MBA in place because my percentile was so borderline I wasn't expecting any calls to begin with!

At the exam center my mannerisms screamed this was my first interview ever ToT. Ended up stuttering in my TMAY in front of panel, giving one sentence answers and answered the most basic ecology question wrong. AND THE WORST PART? The panel caught me mid rant about how I messd up my interview as I got out :') Cried for 5 hours straight and its been three days and I'm having nightmares about the PI.

Another absolutely dumb mistake was shrinking into my shell because a person asked me my Caste (NC OBC) before the PI. I already had a salty friend who had been regularly texting me about how I don't deserve any of the calls and he does because he scored more than me. Like, how are you going to be comparing yourself to me when you're the privilaged son of a wing commander while my father worked tirelessly to lift our family up the economic ladder, eventually securing a Grade C job? I know I need to get accustomed to this because it will happen everywhere even in a B School but God is it hard with everyone praying on you to fail. This sub reddit hasn't had any good impact on my pshyce so I think I will dip for a couple months at least. While I worry about missing valuable advice, I think the harm outweighs the benefit, All the best to everyone preparing !

Edit: I get that it might come off as such but no, I am not pitting my failure on a friend. I am dissapointed in myself for letting someone put my self confidence down and for not being mentally resilient. I am logging off reddit because it has being doing the same. This is the first step for me to built myself back up.