Delivered from trangenderism apparently!!!

Question

I’m an atheist and an ex transgender woman who stoped taking female hormones, hormone blockers and removed my breast implants. I cut my hair short. I also canceled my bottom surgery! I’m still gay tho I’m just back to being a boy! I never believed in mother Mary. But after I made this action. I had a dream of Mary saying

“you’re starting to fight against the flesh”

“ the Holy Spirit is awakening in you”

I replied with “but Mary I’m still a gay man I wear make up and dresses”

She replied with “but you’ve been delivered from transgnderism so praise my son”

Then I replied with “praise god I’m fighting cancer and not giving up to it”

I don’t understand I feel like it’s not a big deal why did it grab the attention of Mary! She was so happy in the dream, and had a big smile. I just stopped taking hormones, removed my breast implants and canceled my bottom surgery. I still wear make up and dresses and I have a boyfriend! Why did she appear to me? What did I mean by “cancer”?

I shouldn’t feel this way because I don’t believe in god. But I feel seen. I feel like I’ve accomplished something good!?!

Also Mary was so beautiful?! She had a face as bright as the moon. Honey light chestnut brown hair. An oval face. Rosy lips and cheeks. Hazel eyes. I was almost blinded from her beauty to be honest!