Can you go to heaven if you hate god?

Let me be clear: if the christian god is true, I HATE god. I think he’s a monster. An absolute monster. Like an abusive father times a billion. However if I ever know I’m going to do die, I may repent right before. I don’t want to be in heaven really, like it all. It sounds awful. But hell sounds not fun either. If I had to choose I’d probably choose heaven, even though it’s the next worst thing. Is all that is required belief?