me being envious of literally everyone in my life

hi,

i constantly compare myself to everyone like I'm not even kidding, my best friend is working out and got fitter and looks so good and i immediately thought that wow what am i- what am i even doing- and the same thing happens every time with everything. I'm almost 18 and i still do this and i hate it. i get envious of everyone and i just feel like it's my loss every time i see something good happening to other people. i feel like this is the reason it gets a bit difficult for me to be happy for other people; and these are people that i care about - my best friends and family. i feel like it's because i have nothing of my own going on at the moment (which has been for a long time now,,, really long), i feel this low. like i used to draw but now it just makes me unhappy that i can't draw well and i just gave that up. the thing is, i know that this could be the reason for me feeling this way but i just don't do anything of my own and just sit around binging shows all day because "doing" is too difficult. but honestly what good thing isn't difficult yknow. i keep telling myself that i can change and i can "do" things but I've never been consistent. i think because of me choosing the easy way every damn time i'm starting to hate a lotta things. i wanna do things that i like, i don't know if that'll make all the envy go away but it'll be a start.