I want to take myself out because of foot problems

I got a nondisplaced 4th toe middle phalanx fracture on december 8. It's January 26. I removed my splint and I realized I can walk pain free as long as I don't wear closed toe shoes. I tried to wear closed toe shoes and I felt pain despite the bone apparently being healed by now. In fact I don't know if I will be able to wear shoes again.

I'm about to lose my fucking mind and end myself. I just want to wear shoes again. Walk again. please tell me what is going on. I'm close to ending it.