How to truly understand and give up finding love?

I'm 26 M and I'm Virgin with no experience and never been on a relationship with a women never kissed on etc. and I truly want to give up on the idea that I will ever have sex or be in love with a women every time I think I'm truly over it I see a couple and it instantly makes me bitter and ruins my day and im over it doing so
Also not really looking for any uplifting advice such as "just put yourself out there" I heard and tried all of it and still ended up friendzoned