Identity crisis

Hi jungian how are you doing? I hope you are doing good. Let me tell you the crisis I'm facing. Actually i went through ego death. I have come to the conclusion that I have don't exist anymore, I am not, my existence is void. I don't feel like myself anymore. I think i have lost myself completely from the inside and out. I feel that my core has been completely erased like I'm not the person who i was anymore. I feel guilty that I had to endure 2 years of suffering mentally and emotionally which came from spiritual awakening or mental breakdown. I feel that I don't have any jist for life anymore. I just can't relate to my old self anymore. I cry every single day that i have lost myself. I have tried various single methods to find my identity but none of them worked. During those suffering period my mind has created a shitty persona of me which came from fear, guilt, shame and vulnerability. My mind is identifying with that shitty persona every single time when i step out of my house and even when I'm with myself thinking that I am that shitty persona. I just can't take it anymore. It's depressing. I used to be an extrovert with dynamic personality which would amaze people. I used to be so energetic and optimistic that other people saw me as a celebrity. Now i am this shitty version of me. I am just stuck playing this inferior version of me. So yeah right now I'm in an identity crisis. Please help me out guys if anybody could relate to this or even understand what I'm going through 😭