Can't find my twin

Heyy jungian how are you doing? Well I can say that I had two personalities in my mind which is kind of typical example of the zodiac Gemini. Two years back i had a mental breakdown due to extreme mental and emotional upheaval and it was horrible. After that I experienced ego death because of depression or some might say the dark night of the soul but I'll not call that. let's say depression for now. I don't want to over complicated this thing that I'm struggling with. So as i a Gemini we all know that we have two people in our mind one is masculine and the other one is feminine. I used to experience this polarity and I was feeling so like myself but after the mental breakdown due to trauma that i faced everything shattered. I'm finding my twin but he is not there. Please anyone can help me out or give me some wisdom on hope?