Hey everybody. I wanted to make another post to just kind of let something off my chest that's been bothering me for a while: my fear of having a terrible memory.

Before you comment on such things, I have talked to a therapist and usually speak with my mom about this. I have also never been traumatized (except for being exposed to two fetishes: vore (about 5 years old) and female muscle (about 13). I might just have autism or a mental disorder. I wish to see a psychiatrist, now.

I know this is not the best subreddit to discuss such a matter, but I figure that more people might listen to what I want to say.

Since June or July last year, I have been worried that I do not have a great memory. Sure, that's a given for probably 99% of people, who might not be able to answer something like "What were you wearing when you were at your cousin's wedding?" But this bothers me a lot.

I want to be able to remember a lot of the events in my life. I feel like that would benefit me so much more. It doesn't help that I am chronically worried about not only this but other areas of my life.

I feel like I sometimes am a victim in life, but I want to change for the better. But, it's hard for me to do that. These worries just always constantly come back to me.

Do you have any good advice for me? Please give it (even if I might not fully follow it through)

I need help