I gave birth

To a beautiful baby boy this morning at 17 weeks. He lived a few minutes and he wasn’t going without a fight. I wish things would have ended differently. I had a feeling since the beginning something wasn’t right. I have bleed since 5-6 weeks and some days were better than others. I’m just at a loss of words. I didn’t think it would come to this. Everything happened so fast. I’m heartbroken. I wish he was still here and healthy. I wish my body would have reacted differently. I waited so long only for baby boy only for it to be cut short.