Being jealous how society treats women softer than men isnt really a sign is it ?

Before I even called myself a femboy ( and after ) I was promoting "men's rights".
I felt like women have it easier than men ( I know this is not exactly true, but still, I feel like that )
I became a femboy probably for fetishistic reasons.
My friend in school was kind of effeminate, yet he's not trans or anything and deserves to live how he likes and to use he/him pronouns. He is very feminine and I often felt comfortable with him and felt jealous that he's too feminine than me, and I felt like I dont even deserve to be called a femboy.
At that time, I was totally a girl, I did many 'girly' stuffy just to feel it, and I was happy.
But it wasnt the same earlier.
Before I decided to be a femboy, I was happy being a boy, even though I knew I was softer than them, I believed it would fix someday.
Even after being a femboy and before wanting to be a transfemme, I promoted gender equality. I hated that there are two genders. I of course hated some advantages women get by being a woman and I also hated that only girls have periods. I thought it was unfair that they have to go through such stuff and many other bad stuff.
So guys, the conclusion is that I am just a radical trying to convince myself to be trans for fetishistic purposes and societal problems.