RRMS since 2919 age 18, small intestine cancer stage 1 age 24. Frustrated and unsure how this will affect my ms.

So I got diagnosed with RRMS when I was 18 and finishing the second semester of the first year of my bachelor of education. I was hit with symptoms right around finals and they came fast. Symptoms included paraesthesia all over my body, left eye deviating to the left, physically being unable to look to the left with my eyeballs, walking like a heavy drunk (balance was completely shot), Bell's palsy on left half of my face, extreme vertigo, vision blurriness (including my left eye going legally blind).

Fortunately, I managed to finish my degree 4 years later with distinction (3.8 GPA) and made an amazing recovery. Been on ocrelezumab since July 2019 and it has been relatively smooth sailing since (no relapse) knock on wood.

I also managed to get my dream job at my dream school (teacher) and a permanent contract after my first year (2024). I have also applied for and was accepted to a graduate certificate in trauma informed educational practices which is set to start this September. I finally felt like I had reason to be optimistic and my life is looking up.

However, I went for a PET scan a couple days ago (to investigate other issues I have) and they incidentally have discovered a neoplasm on the midsection of my ileum. The next day my doctor called saying he wants to book me for another scan (mr enterography) to get a better image of the neoplasm, and told me to go to the emergency room if I start to experience stomach pain.

For some reason, instead of feeling devastated, I just feel nothing, numb.

I'm not sure how this will affect my ms and me continuing to recieve ocrelezumab and since all I can do for now is wait, I'm posting here.

I can't tell my grandparents because they definitely won't be able to handle the emotional weight of this news so I will hide it from them for their own good.

It just sucks, you know?