I hate playing the Clarinet

So basically I’ve been playing the clarinet for school for now a year and a half I think. The thing is : I hate it. It’s si god damn difficult, I hate the way it sounds, the fingerings (?) are horrible, it hurts my lips and mouth, my thumb hurts. Every time I practice I start to get annoying, angry and anxious so fast it drives me crazy. Sometimes I just throw my clarinet because of how much I hate it. Every time we have to send videos of ourselves playing to the teacher for homework I just can’t play well and it always sounds horrible. I get so angry whenever I play it it’s horrible. In short : I hate it. What can I do to become better at it and stop hatting it ? Or just what should I do ?