I legit just wanna die

22 Male, i never had a job, never did got to college after high school, never kissed a girl, come from a very poor family from a poor country, way ugly and fat.

I never felt so lonely, anxious and depressed as i am these days.

The woman that i love is also married and has a child with another guy, and even if she wasn't i know that she wouldn't like me because i'm a neet and a burden.