Have you ever emailed/texted your abusive ex to call them out on their behaviour?

I am on week 5 after leaving my abusive violent Nex. I have PTSD and seeing a psychiatrist but other than that, I have my head on my shoulders, and riding out the trauma which takes time.

I have a bad habit, where once a week I’ll get triggered and need a drink. I’ll have like 4-5 drinks to calm down. But this is when I open up and send an email to my Nex, outlining all the abuse, with examples.

They are not angry emails, no threats or accusations etc. My intoxicated self is trying to get him to see his behaviour and explaining he isn’t allowed to treat women that way.

Has anyone else done this before?

I keep waking up the next day freaking out that he will print the emails and take them to the police - but then he’d incriminate himself.

I wish i could stop doing it, but alcohol lets my inhibitions go. It’s like all the stuff I was too afraid to say to him in person (because he’d get abusive, violent and intimidating)

My sober self just wants peace and to move on.