Wish I never left

I wish I had never left my narcissistic spouse. I finally built a happy life after leaving him six months ago—I got a job, my own place, and a sense of freedom. When he tried to reconcile, I refused because of the abuse he put me through.

Two weeks ago, he came to visit our young kids, something he would do every couple of months. He told me he was taking them out for a bit—but instead, he fled the state with them. I haven’t seen them in two weeks, and I miss them more than I can put into words. He’s hiding them from me, and despite going through the courts, the process is moving so slowly.

On top of that, he’s being incredibly manipulative and dirty in court, making my life a living hell. I can’t help but think that if I had never left, I would still have my kids with me. My biggest fear is that he will continue to do everything in his power to make my life miserable.