I think I wanted to be pregnant, not a mom.

Edit: I would like to thank everyone for their supportive and helpful comments! The night I posted this, I was reading them one by one while nursing my baby, and they made me feel SO MUCH BETTER!

I still get notifications for new comments and everytime I have a long night and a weak moment, I open reddit to read them again. I honestly feel like I should print a few out and hang them somewhere where I can see them xD Thank you all so much! Not only did you make me feel better about myself and my future, I also have seen a lot of comments of other mothers in my current situation or about to give birth, who have been worried about the same thing. You also helped them!

The kind words and long, warm messages really go a long way. I am glad I made this post (I at first was really expecting to get a lot of negative feedback and I felt like I'd deserve that). You all are amazing parents and a really, really wholesome community! <3

My first post on reddit... I'm somewhat desperate. Please don't judge me for my very selfish thoughts, I know they're wrong :(

I just had my very wanted baby (2 weeks old).

But I already miss being "just pregnant & alone with my husband". I miss my baby being inside of me and always cared for instead of seeing him cry and having to fulfill all of his needs. He seems to hate the outside world so much. I hate that my belly already went back to normal after 3 days. He’s here now physically in my arms, but my body feels empty.

I feel like my husband, me & our unborn baby were such a good team. I miss pregnancy so much, the privilege of being a family while still being able to do all the spontaneous little silly things with my husband. This is over now, and we will never again have this phase of being just me & him pregnant with our first.

My husband seems to see things differently from me - thankfully!!! Seeing what a great dad he is and how positively his outlook on our future is, fills me with so much happiness and appreciation for him and keeps me going.

I don't know if these thoughts are normal. I wish I would have enjoyed these 9 months even way more than I did. I tried to soak it all up but I didn't know how much I would miss everything about it.

I feel horrible for even having thoughts like that. Maybe someone went through something similar :( Will this pass?