ongoing cannibalistic urge towards my lover
I’ve been dating my partner for 6 months now, and ever since about the 3 month mark, I’ve had a barely resistible urge to consume them in any way.
Every time I see them. Every time I kiss them. When I smell their hair. It’s not always the literal cannibalism where I want to eat their flesh, but every single part of them.
To consume their scent. To own their scent. To eat their hair. To hold them forever, consume their being in entirety.
It’s getting to a point where I can control it less and less. When we’re lying down together cuddling, and I smell them in any way, maybe my head is nuzzled into their neck or armpit or hair and they’re sweating, if I pick up on their smell, there’s just this feeling compelling me to take a bite. Anywhere. There are times where I wasn’t able to control it, biting down on places that hurt without realizing. I don’t mean to, but there are feelings for them that overpower me.
I don’t mind it, but they kind of do. Plus, I don’t want to hurt them by biting too hard. I don’t really know what to do, I just wanted to get that out there. Thanks for reading.