when will it end

it will always hurt

atp im at like the acceptance stage of accepting i can never ever like be with them or like meet them the chances of meeting her or attending her show is very very veryyyy unlikely so despite accepting alll of this despite muting blocking fanpages and all it still fucking hurts when i just see pics of her with her bf🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢 and friends like it kills me it kills me idk why i know everything that she is just a celebrity etc but idk it just hurtssss knowing all i can do i cry and watch her life through pictures like its not fair its not fair seeing fans and stuff interacting with her but seeing her with friends and her bf is just horrific especially those papparazzi pics of her holding hands etc like i dont wanna see it yet it pops up on my algorithm😭😭😭 i hate it it just it will always hurt seeing her with others idk when it will stop maybe if i find someone in my life like my wife than i hopee i hope these feelings end😭