Spiraling into Insanity

I don't know what to do man, I keep doing this to myself and I have no Idea why. The doomscrolling is getting worse and it got me sick today, am I trying to kill myself, kill myself so I don't have to worry of living under a facist because my country is corrupt and wants to go back to the "Good ol days"? Just why man.

My family tells me to stay out of politics, yet I don't listen

Even when I feel good, my brain immediately tells me that I'm a facist because I'm happy at the moment, I feel like I can't be happy again because if I do, I'm gonna feel bad about it because this is now a facist country

Everything, from the tariffs, to the threats of rights loss, and Rise of facism, I just want to go to sleep, and wake up in a void

I just want to erase this all from my head and I wished I never found social media in the first place, cuz if I did, I would've felt a whole lot more better than I am right now...

Any advice, or hurl insults at me idc