Does anyone compulsively engage in “metacognition”?

Does anybody else feel a fear driven, obsessive need to observe and understand the world? So much that you inevitably realized the “world” is a reflection of your mind so now you desperately analyze your mind and try to find patterns and isolate biases to no end while making observations of the world to try get a more accurate understanding? Like a computer giving itself virus scans every time it’s loads a page and then giving its virus scan software a virus scan to make sure it’s accurate.