Jonesing for a run

I am forcing a day off. Not 1 spark or dash. Why is it hard? I intended to do this pt to supplement my husband's income and quickly discovered that this shit is addictive. I didnt mean to wake up at 5:30, but I did. And i have to actively deny the urge to spark. I found myself scheduling a dash, just to catch the breakfast runs, but came to my senses 10 minutes later amd canceled it. Im trying to remind myself that I have 130 in tips coming in today, but thats like a cigarette for weed. My name is NYB, and I am a delivery addict.