Am i the asshole?

I would like to preface that my husband Harvey is the loml, and he’s an amazing man who is a doctor and he runs his own practice. He’s thoughtful and he frequently waters my crops and takes care of our dog, however our relationship has been uneventful as of late and it’s left a little to be desired. Recently he asked me if i wished to adopt a baby with him, i agreed because i love him. However i soon realized that i may have made a mistake. See, we got married within a year (we’ve been married for two at this point) and i do love him however im afraid i haven't really lived or had time to explore my youth. One night while i was feeling this particular way i walked to the saloon and saw my good friend there, Sam. We got to talking and i bought him a pizza, i realized while we were talking that i really like him. he’s a talented musician with his own band, and after i few drinks in a gave him a bouquet, and he told me he really would like to get serious with me. I feel the same way with him, he’s fun and spontaneous. However i can’t forget my husband who i really do love, but i really like Sam too and he makes me feel appreciated in a way i don’t with Harvey. I feel like im in too deep to tell either of them what’s really going on. AITA?

TLDR am i the asshole for cheating on my husband