im terrified of time passing and ageing

im 19f and im so scares to age im not ready

dont tell me it doesnt matter and stuff like that,; i feel like i didnt have enough time to grow up/have a good childhood so im still stuck thinking im 14 i hate this so much

i want people to treat me like im some child to be protected because i feel that way. people wont be so kind and lenient when im older.

i just started my first job and people are kind but this wont stay i dont want to grow up why am i 19 already i fucking hate this i want to die i hate life

TIME IS PASSING TOO FAST IM HAVING PANIC ATTACKS