I’m going to kill myself by overdosing on my insulin tonight.

Just like the title says. I’m a type 1 diabetic so that’s why I have insulin. Tonight before I go to bed I’m going to give myself the remaining vials of my short-acting stuff all in one sitting putting me into a diabetic coma and killing myself. I have just a little over 500U of humalog to use. There is absolutely no way I’m going to survive this. I live alone and no one is expecting to come over and find me. I have a will in place with my family that was done way prior to this, so at least the money I’m worth will be going to them. I have no one to depend on me - no children or partners or pets. Just my miserable, pathetic self. I give it about a week or two before people probably notice I’m gone. In regards to work, I work as a nurse and I took some PTO prior to this so I have 10 days before I’m expected to come back. No one will be the wiser. They’ll just think I skipped work until the news finally sets in. Honestly, what might be the reason people discover me is the smell. Maybe I should go outside? Idk.

Everything is planned out regardless. I can finally be at peace with myself. Goodbye everyone. Fuck everything. I can’t wait to end my miserable existence. If there’s a Hell, I hope I burn for all eternity. I deserve it. But it doesn’t really fucking matter does it because I’m in hell each and everyday. There is no way anyone can convince me to change my mind. I’m only posting this because I want this to be kind of a send off of sorts. I’ve seen similar people write these and they’re almost like online suicide notes (speaking of which, I should probably draft one). I don’t know if that’s too messed up or not. I’m just going to ruin everyone’s day. For that I’m sorry. Maybe you guys can live a better life than I could. Who knows. No one knows who I am; I’m just an anonymous loser.

Anyways, I just got back from working nights and I’m tired. Going to go to bed and take a nice walk when I wake up in the afternoon. I’ll probably read some of what you guys say when I wake up, but please don’t try and convince me not to do this. My mind is already made up. Hopefully it’s nice out so I can at least enjoy the sunshine a final time. And with that, I’m out. Bye everyone.

EDIT: I’m going to go ahead and deactivate this account now. Thank you for the kind words for those who reached out to me. I’m sorry I’ve just shot down everything you’ve said, but I need to do this. I hope you guys can deal with your suffering better than I could. Goodbye.