He hurt me (rant and shit ton of swearing!!)

This is probably gonna be shorter than my usual posts.

For those of you who haven't read my recent posts or are new to my subreddit, hello! Nice to meet ya. I am a middle school girl with depression and anxiety. I'm pretty much your average weirdo. Shy and nerdy in public, crazy asf in front of my friends, parents, or online. Anywho, let's get on with this.

So my grandfather just got diagnosed with lung cancer about...5 months ago? I'm guessing. My mom kept it a secret at first but eventually told me. I know this makes me sound like an insensitive fucko, but I seriously can't cry sometimes. I tried to cry, but tears wouldn't come out. It's not that I don't love my grandfather, because I love him with all my heart. I would do anything right now to cure him. I just can't cry sometimes. Anywho, after about 2 months or so, it's time to get back to school. :( School is already miserable enough, so that sucks, too. So anyway, my best friend, I'm not gonna say his real name, so let's just call him Zach.

So Zach is, in my words, an insensitive fucko (sometimes). He does not have respect for most people's opinions but his own and says some pretty horrible shit about other people's opinions.

One day at school, I decided to rant about what is going on in my life. And to whom? Zach, because he's usually the dude I go to.

So I told Zach about the stress of school and other shit, and then told him about my grandfather. All he said was 'good'. I was confused and hurt by this. My other friend, let's call her Ruby, heard about this, and decided to stand up to him, along with me as well. We explained to him to shut the fuck up and stop being so fucking rude and negative about shit.

I told the counselor bout it and she brought Zach into the conversation, and while we were in there, I asked Zach why he said that about my grandpa. His excuse was, "I was in a bad mood. Sorry."

Excuse me, sorry if I sound stuck up or bitchy, but that's really not an excuse for saying that. People have died of cancer, and it's not funny to say those things. But I accepted Zach's apology and went on with it.

Weeks later, I told Zach about my secret cartoon crush, and it's okay if he doesn't like him as a character, but he doesn't need to say that he looks stupid and ugly just to make me feel bad. I know he says it for that specific reason because I asked him why he says rude shit all the time, and he said he enjoys making people mad or sad. I asked him why hates all my crushes (my former crushes are jocks!) and he said he doesn't respect people who like gym class or sports. He also said he hates all my other friends.

I snapped at him and told him that he should respect people's opinions and wishes and shouldn't hate everyone and everything I mention just to make me upset, especially if he knows I have a passion for it.

Oh, forgot, I asked him if he wanted to hear about an animation/project I've been working on, and he said no because it probably sucks and is stupid.

At this rate, I feel as if this friendship needs to end.