I will be the last of my bloodline.

So. My mom and dad are older. My.mom had me when she was 40, and she is struggling bad with diverticulitis and is facing the prospect of health issues eith her heart later on down the road. My dad has type 2 diabetes and is going to keep getting strokes until his brain can't stand the strain anymore, He is about to be on his 4rth major stroke in 7 years. I have no siblings. No grandmparents No uncles or aunts, no cousins. I am the last of the Mohican's. I dont have a lot of hope for finding a wife. I hope it happens and I take proper steps to attain it, and live in faith that all is possible, but nothing yet. My parents don't have long. And I dont know how I am gonna deal with having no more family.

This makes me put even more stress on starting a family and makes my desire for it grow bigger. It makes me sad that it's a very real possibility that I will not find a godly wife before my parents pass. For one I don't want to be alone, and 2, I want them to see me get married before they go, and ideally give them grandkids. But as time goes by, I have to face the music and recognize that not only could this not happen before they go, but also after. It's very real that God could just not have marriage in his plan for my life. I dont know. I have plenty of godly friends, but they all have theor own famalies, and I am the last of my kind, and because of my parents living on opposite ends of the country, I get to see them maybe once every 2 years.

I dont know, what do yall think. I can't really.fond a light in the tunnel rn, and it just hurts.