I’m gay but want to be Christian…

I’m a gay 27 year old male. I hear all the time that being gay isn’t a sin in itself but the actions that usually come with it is a sin. I want to believe in Christ, buy my first Bible, go to church, and learn it all. But I just can’t seem to bring myself to do it because of the fact that I am a homosexual. Everyone tells me to go to hell, That I’m a bad person, an abomination, and can never be a true Christian. I haven’t even told my mom and she’s a devout true Christian. I feel like she would disown me…

What do I do? I don’t have much experience in prayer but like I said, I do want to start learning and start going to church…

I just feel like nobody would accept me and turn their backs on me…