WWC is my therapy?

I posted before how their recaps of Secret lives heal a piece of my soul that was so damaged by just existing as a woman in high control religion. I deconstructed over 10 years ago, but I am now in the process of healing old, childhood trauma. I am discovering that the damaging ideology is still ingrained into my hard wiring, especially when it comes to anything related to sex or my sexual identity. Ronnie is like the mama bear for anyone who has lived in a toxic religious culture. He is the patron saint of weirdness and acceptance and I feel like between him and Ben and the space they create with their podcast, it feels like this is kind of a safe space for me to find those that can celebrate this win with me.

It has always been important to me to live my most authentic self and I am discovering that part of that self is queer. I am starting to have the conversations with the people that matter to me about who I really am. It really bothers me that people just assume I am heterosexual. A few days ago I talked to my husband about it and last night I messaged my best friend of 20 years, who is also in a 10 year marriage to a man and we never talked about any of these things as kids, like sexuality and gender are fluid and it can mean mean things, it's not just a box we check on demographics. But she is the first love of my life and because we've been through 20 years of shit together, she was like "yep that tracks. also, me too." I wanted to share because I'm looking for those that understand how fucking bizard is to experience acceptance and not look for the other shoe to drop, or not wait for the shame or the guilt to set in, but just true acceptance. And also those who understand that I demand acceptance and a world where people can just exist without having to be afraid of judgment or their life being in danger.

But that was way too long to begin with and if you see yourself in this or you just want to celebrate a win with me, thank you for reading this.