How do you guys do it?

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I just worked 1000 hours of overtime in 6 months and the depression is hitting me hard especially after the holidays. I spent the holidays all alone which was so depressing. Skiing and PT is the only thing keeping me fucking sane.

I know I've worked as much as a 9-5 would in an entire year but I still feel like such a piece of shit for just hanging around the house for even 1 day. If I'm not out and doing at least something every day I feel like shit. I know I'm not going to do it but I have a lot of suicidal ideation at my lowest points which is really tough because it feels good to think about it.

How do you guys keep the depression away seriously? Having a tough time trying to figure it out.