Numb to the abuse

I’m in a marriage that has gotten more abusive over the past year and a half. There was a huge incidence last night, where he pushed me out of our car, we were parked in a industrial area not near our house. He locked me out and drove away. It was night and I had no phone. He eventually came back but since I didn’t answer whatever question he had to his liking, he sat in the car with the doors locked, refusing to let me in or to get my phone. Finally let me in, threw my phone in the back, tried to throw my purse outside. I tried to pull it to me so it ripped.he started driving. I kept saying I want my phone. For safety reasons, since he had just left me outside in the dark without a phone, and I had no way to contact anyone. He said, all you care about is your phone, instead of our conversation?!When I tried to crawl to the back, he slammed the breaks so I went to the dashboard. Finally after me repeating I don’t feel safe over and over, he stopped all of this. As I was outside at night in an unfamiliar place, and at home after, I felt numb. Anyone else experienced this? Like my trauma is not allowing me to get upset anymore? Like I know this is extremely fucked up. I am trying to get a job that will allow me to support myself to get out of this situation, but I am just shutting down.