when to end this lifestyle ?

Has anyone here ended this lifestyle without any particular reason? And if yes what made you do it or how did you know it is done ?

Like no issues with AP, no change at home, no change in reasons which led to affair. But just done with it.

I feel better to end affair to prevent the blow up it can cause. I still like hooking up with AP - we probably meet up once in 2/3 months, not emotionally involved, quite an easy breezy affair. Its been 6 yrs of this. Just 2 months ago I had a blast with AP, even made a post here. Met twice last month for quickies.

But now suddenly am overwhelmed with this confusion. I am thinking why am I doing this, for what gains. I am unable to make one firm decision. I keep going back and forth.

This happened before but that feeling passed after few weeks. AP says if you feel like this no problem, take a break. I feel this makes it difficult for me to break up as there is clear sexual attaraction, mind blowing sex with a really good natured guy in an effortless affair.

Just looking for some stories, thoughts, different perspectives to help me sort my thoughts.