Daydreaming

Anyone else daydream about what it’d be like to do the things you do with your spouse instead with your AP? I’m referring to going to places or events together. Even day to day life, I guess.

I had a busy weekend with the family and I’m smiling on the outside, but internally daydreaming about doing these things with “him” instead.

I love it and I hate it.

The hate is only because of the reality of all of this. The fear of how temporary these connections have always been in the past.

It’s so much better to have feelings but it sure can be harder in other ways that I didn’t expect.