In my feelings

I recently met with my AP. We were so vulnerable with one another. The sex was so amazing I cried, he just held me in his arms. I've never experienced anything like that before. It was truly magical.

Today has been a really emotional day for me. I have felt really alone (AP has been great, and I'm sure if I tell him how I feel, he will reassure me). I've reflected a lot on my relationship with SO. It saddens me to know I do not have that level of intimacy with my husband. How do people deal with this feeling?