Does anyone else feel like a loser?

It’s the only way I can describe how I feel about this lifestyle sometimes. I feel like a loser. Do I have a crappy marriage? Yup. Do I have an AP? Yup. Do I get fed breadcrumbs by AP? Yup. Do I have feelings? Yup. Are there days where I have the most incredible time with AP? YUP. Rinse and repeat. And then comes the weekend…where there’s the dreaded minimal contact with AP and I find myself sitting here thinking…I’m. Such. A. Loser. I didn’t choose the lifestyle, it chose me. Rant over! Happy Saturday kids…