Musings in the wee hours of the morning

Currently sitting in bed by myself in a swanky 5 star hotel. AP has gone through quite the trouble to book the room for me for the weekend. Because i needed a break. Left his card on file at the spa. He may or may not visit me some time tonight or in the wee hours of the morning. Depends on his schedule. Of.course id love to see him. He would as well. Yet every time i walk past the mirror I can't imagine why he wants me. I know I need to get out of my head. Yet he questions ME why i want HIM!!!!