Did I fall in love with my AP
Met on AM. Chatted via Telegram for a few days maybe a week or two. Met for coffee. A 3 hour long coffee. Eyes so deliciously brown I was swimming in pools of hot chocolate. I actually thought I could see his soul. Told him I wanted to kiss him. When we kissed I knew. I just fucking knew I was in big trouble. I wasn’t looking for THIS. I wanted some passion- yes. But OMG. That kiss. Then we met. The BEST sex of my life. I’m telling you. I was a puddle. I wanted him back in me immediately. This all happened in October. We’ve met probably every other week since then except for a trip of his and one other time when it was almost two weeks. I cannot stop thinking about him. I don’t and won’t leave my husband-too many years gone by and it’s not worth it. Although I feel like I’m married to my brother.
Okay, here’s the problem: when we are together time stops. I’m being serious. And it’s so exhilarating and wonderful. Then back to texting. In which I get 3 word texts. Good mornings. Sometimes a good night- not always. It’s infuriating. I want more. Is it one sided? Do I tell him I’m in love? Do I wait? I don’t want to give up the big D or his caressing hands and fiery eyes. But am I fucking crazy?? Oh those who are experienced APs help a girl out. I’m wilting without the attention I crave. I just want more. Am I too much??