I feel guilty over losing attraction to my boyfriend because he's become more effeminate after coming out.

I hate that I feel this way because I'm the one who convinced him to come out. Suddenly, his voice went from being deep to a lot higher. He has changed his style. His manners.

What I used to find hot about him was how manly he was, I felt like I hit the jackpot and the dream turned into a nightmare because I feel I can't dump the guy for turning flamboyant.

He's noticed I've been avoiding intimacy and he's told me he wants to bottom and I now live in fear.

I'm considering an escape plan. I'm saving up money and considering a job offer in the East so I can use that as an excuse. I found a wig in his closet and I nearly had a panic attack. If I stay, it won't end well and I'd rather leave while respecting his way of being without sacrificing my personal experiences. I want him to be happy with someone who loves him for who he is. I fell in love with a lie.

UPDATE: My boyfriend had a conversation with me. he noticed I was drifting away and wondered if there was anything wrong. I got cold feet and said everything was all right. I didn't bring up the wig I found because I was too scared of what he'd say and I feared I'd have a nervous breakdown. I started crying at my job and had to be comforted. The guilt has been consuming my soul. If I ended our relationship, I know he'd destroy himself and would run back to the closet but if I stay, I'd never be happy and I can't keep avoiding intimacy until I figure out my escape plan.

Next week, I'll go back to my parents' house to take care of my mother. I told my boyfriend it'll be for two weeks. I need the time to heal myself from the trauma.