Love and Homosexuality

(I don’t speak English and will use a translator)

I’m 22 years old and still in the closet, although my family probably suspects it due to some signs. Outside of them, people assume I’m straight, and living in a fairly remote and limited city doesn’t help me find a partner either.

Sometimes I wonder if, as gay men, we can have a “typical” love life or if we’re destined to stay single and have casual sex. This thought exhausts me, sometimes even depresses me, or makes me think I should just resign myself. On the other hand, I also feel that maybe porn has influenced my perspective, and perhaps I should quit it.

All of 2024, I kept considering telling my parents that I’m gay, but I never did. It’s also hard for me because my older brother is gay too. I feel like coming out would be like life spitting in their faces. However, in 2025, I want to be much more honest with myself, more decisive, and set boundaries.

I just wanted to vent a little :)