I have to pause HRT… the anxiety is too intense… :(

So I started E two days ago. First day was fine, but I woke up in the night with horrifying anxiety, violently shaking panic attacks, couldn’t calm down. weed, Ativan barely even helped. Ruminating anxious thoughts/dreams like I was having fever dreams. Yesterday was the same. Anxious all day, barely slept even with Ativan and weed. Zero appetite, thank god ensures exist. I called my prescriber to explain and he said since it’s only been 2 days I can just stop. So I’m going to stop and come back to it in a month or so, I guess… I recently stopped antidepressants (lexapro) about two months ago cause I was so happy from coming out. Edit: I did this the right way over two weeks at the doctors discretion. I would never quit an SSRI cold turkey. those also really helped with anxiety and appetite and rumination, so I’m thinking I’ll go back on that, and try E again. I also think maybe I should start on a lower dose? What’s a typical starting dose? I was taking 2mg estradiol 3x a day (6mg/day). He did say this was a “medium” dosage. Maybe I should be starting slower? I never feel this anxious. It’s really scary, and I can’t even pinpoint what I’m anxious about. I just am. What should I think? I’m not even disappointed in myself, this is too terrifying to do this way. What’s happening 😔